Let Go

I'm skipping yesterdays Reverb. I couldn't get it to load all morning, so when I wanted to blog, I couldn't, and also..i didn't really like it.

Day 5- What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

Well, the only thing that I can think of that I've had to give up was my knee. Let me explain. No, i did not literally give my knee away; it's still fastened in my body, but two summer's ago I developed rheumatoid arthritis in the left knee. Can't really explain why except, as a young teen I had juvenile rheumatoid arthritis in both knees, and after several drainings and cortisone shots it went away, and then around the time my knee started acting up again, my husband and I had been caving in a slick cave, a place where I almost died, and in the process of almost dying I hit my knee a lot and put a lot of strain on it...those are the only reasons I can come up with on why a then healthy, active 27 or 26 (can't remember how old I am right now, and I don't feel like doing the math) year old developed arthritis. At the beginning, I was very hopeful that draining and steroids would fix the problem like it did when I was a teenager, but it's been over a year now, and nothing is different. So, i gave up my knee and gained a slight limp, not too noticeable except when I first get up after sitting for awhile. Walking upstairs is not pain free, and I can't run. To make this story shorter, the knee is not better, and the doctors don't think it will ever get better. So, I've had to give up my knee, which has made me have to give up certain exercises and activities that I had really enjoyed doing. At first, I was a big sour puss about it. Woe is me. But, now that it's been about a year and half, I'm not so down about it. Yes, Lord, please take it away, but thank you Lord, because, one, it's not spreading to my other joints (it's not getting worse), and two, I can function very normally in life. And best of all, I'm not on medication anymore, and I'm function just the same as when I was on meds, so there is a lot to be grateful for. We've had a mellow year, which the Lord knew we need..and it's nice that the only thing I had to give up was a knee.